"Holy Clinging"

Today I was on the telephone with my mother-in-law discussing my day and talking about my progression of this most recent "medical distraction." We discussed my upcoming follow up appointment tomorrow and all that is to follow. We discussed weather I should drive alone or if she should go with. Whether we should eat before, basically all of the fun little details. At the end of the conversation, I reminded her that I had my nine month Melanoma check up next week. She then asked if she should go with and I told her no, that I thought all would be well.

Actually, this is usually the time when I begin the self diagnosis process. Let me first clarify that I am always constantly checking and monitoring my moles. I have so many of them that it is no exaggeration to say that I am a walking mole. so when I say the self diagnosis process, I mean that I think all of my moles are Melanoma. While talking with my mother in law, I was thinking that. After hanging up with her, I was gently reminded of Psalm 63 "The Psalm of Holy Clinging".

I don't know how many actually read my blog, but those who do, do you know David from the Bible? If you do, what comes to your mind when you think of him? The first thing that comes to my mind is that he was a man after God's own heart. Isn't that awesome? How cool if after I die that I am described as a woman after God's heart. David was a sinner in the worst way, but make no mistake, he loved God with all of his heart, with all of his mind, and with all of his soul.

David wrote Psalm 63 because he needed to cling to God. Through his writings, his attitude began to change. Through his attitude change, he began the clinging process.

1. He longed for God

2. He found satisfaction in God

3. He had an intimate friendship with God

4. He had a desperate dependence on God.

How different would your life, would my life be if my attitude changed on those 4 attributes alone. If only, instead of me self diagnosing and thinking about the fact that I could possibly die from this cancer, instead, I would cling to the dependence of God. If only, instead of feeling the need to pick up the phone in a panic state and scare my Mom 1300 miles away who really can't do a thing about it, if only, I would desperately depend on God instead. If only, instead of going and feeling the need to spend money I didn't have today but instead found total satisfaction of God. If only, how different my life would be. If only, how much more of an impact for the Kingdom I could be.

If only, I didn't feel the need to think I was ugly having what I thought was pasty white skin and felt the need to jump in a tanning bed every single day in my 20's, instead longed to just be for my Maker.....

SPF 15 daily and SPF 30 when outdoors and seriously, re-apply every 30 minutes!! No joke, I got a little pink the other day! My derm is going to love me on Wednesday!!